A recent session has me thinking wow, maybe I do enjoy a bit of pain inflicting more so than I ever thought I would! I have always said I am not the mean mistress type and that the whole pain aspect of domination simply is not a turn on…….but I am rethinking that because the session I had with “B” turned me on, invigorated me and well was plain old hot!!!!

His Pain My Pleasure

So this client is into a bit of CBT and pain, but only when it pleases a woman.  We had the time and day set out to do our first long session and it just so happened it was on my birthday.  So for whatever reason I jumped right into it having him spank his ass with a wooden spoon 38 times and between each whack on the ass he had to wish me a happy birthday! Something happened right about the 20th smack –  his ass was bright red and my panties were moist! I laughed and enjoyed his pain like I never have before with others….could it be I actually liked inflicting pain on him?  Could it be that I am not as sensual as I first thought and have much more than just a little wicked side?

More pain and even more pleasure

I found myself inflicting more and more pain upon this willing submissive man and he never once complained from the hair brush to his ass and balls to the hot wax dripped on some very sensitive areas! The redder his ass and balls got the wetter I got…I found myself more than just amused and entertained; I found myself actually turned on, needing and wanting more! He was beginning to become breathless and grunting and groaning as I gave him his next instructions jerking off with an ice cube…..I then teased him about being so horny but in pain and unable to get fully erect because of the ice he was stroking with…talk about a cock tease and tease and denial.  He was put through it all!!

My eyes are opened to new things

What is this whole blog post about? Well here is the thing, I have said time and time again the pain aspect does not do anything for me…but obviously now I am seeing and feeling differently about it…perhaps it was him or the fact it was my birthday that I was so excited to cause him pain…whatever it is I cannot deny the fact I actually not only enjoyed this pain session but really got turned on by it! Is this all there is for him and I? Of course not because this is just one side of many that I have…it just so happens it is a side of me I never knew existed in this way until now. Just like chastity and orgasm denial I never knew I would enjoy it until that one special client came along and I found myself addicted to it…I am amazed once again that I am forever evolving, my likes and dislikes are forever changing and I look forward to what the next thing might be that changes with me and my kink life style.